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ya ever feel lost in yourself?

So as one can tell, i haven’t been as active at this whole website thing as i had hoped. Granted, i have learned some java (OOOHHHH MOONCLOCKS!), but i havent really been able to commit to the next step. It seems that it is this way with all of my hobbies right now. Writing is near impossible (well of substance that is) and all i seem to find myself doing is staring at one idiotbox or another, and contemplating the next portion of my life.

The question is: when has contemplation and introspection turned into procrastination and avoidance? I am sure it is something that everyone struggles with at some point in their life, it just seems that it has been my life since i was about 12.

I could say that it is my personal life that needs some sort of shot in the arm, but i don’t have that excuse anymore. I have an amazing partner, left a bullshit job, and moved 3k miles away from my home. So one would think that all of those things should add up to the catalyst for the next step. Perhaps, perhaps not.